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Woke up with a temperature and feeling totally beside myself. Stuffed myself with painkillers and went to work. I must have looked horrible as people kept telling me to go home and crawl into bed, but I stayed put. As I had only two lessons left, daycare called the reception and said that I had to come and pick up one of the girls as she had a cut that needed to be seen by a doctor.

So I had to depart and let another teacher take over.

As I arrived at daycare, I quickly saw that the cut was minor. Leah had fallen in some stairs outside, and had a clean (small) cut in her forehead. It was bleeding slightly, but no doctor would sewn her together as the scar would probably be more visible if sewn instead of healing with no interference. I couldn’t really see if it was deep, but from what I could see it looked superficial. Leah was not in pain. And she was bouncing around as usual. She WANTED me to take her to the doctors but only because last time I had to take her, we went to Starbucks after.

But I decided to pick up both girls and take them home with me. Simply because I like to watch them closely when they have hit their head…in case of them having a concussion.

So we took of and went to our car dealer in order to change our normal tires for our snow tires. Better safe than sorry when we are crossing the mountains on our trip to Oslo Saturday.

Grabbed a bite on our way “home”, and are currently washing cloths at my dad’s…while the girls are having a bath.

I really can’t wait for bedtime…I desperately need to sleep. My head is aching and my temperature still has not gone down!

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Thanks laurenandava! You said just what I needed to hear…because I feel like a shitty daughter for even thinking like this. Unfortunately, my auntie talked to my mum today and invited her as well. I just spoke to my auntie and told her how I felt. So we agreed to just tell my mum that she was free to join, but that I had plans to visit friends in Oslo on my way back…and I know my mum, she would not feel comfortable with having to join me there. So hopefully she will decline. 

But I have to check to see if I get someone to change into winter tires (snow tires) in the car before we take off. No snow in the mountains just now, but you never know at this time of year. We might get snow any day so it is better to be safe than sorry. If I can’t get them changed in time, we might have to stay put! 

Fingers crossed!

Thanks laurenandava! You said just what I needed to hear…because I feel like a shitty daughter for even thinking like this. Unfortunately, my auntie talked to my mum today and invited her as well. I just spoke to my auntie and told her how I felt. So we agreed to just tell my mum that she was free to join, but that I had plans to visit friends in Oslo on my way back…and I know my mum, she would not feel comfortable with having to join me there. So hopefully she will decline.

But I have to check to see if I get someone to change into winter tires (snow tires) in the car before we take off. No snow in the mountains just now, but you never know at this time of year. We might get snow any day so it is better to be safe than sorry. If I can’t get them changed in time, we might have to stay put!

Fingers crossed!

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The girls are both tucked in…

Finished late at work today because of meetings, so the girls were amongst the last kids to be picked up (16:00). I really hate having to pick them up that late, but it only happens once a week. So I guess it is not too bad. 

Tomorrow we have our weekly “Thursday meeting” at school. It starts at 16:30 and ends at 19:00, but I am planning on skipping it. I really can’t be asked….two more days and we have a week off from school. Autumn holiday…(mid term). 

I am planning on stuffing the girls in the car and drive over to Oslo/Sarpsborg to visit my auntie, uncle, cousins and their children. It is not that I am looking forward to spend 12 hours in the car, but I know that the girls will truly enjoy it once we get there. We didn’t really get any summer holiday, as we were busy moving house. So they deserve a break to get away and just do something else. 

My auntie asked me to invite my mum as well, but I don’t intend to do that. I absolutely refuse to spend 12 hours in the car with her, and I don’t want to have her moping around for the entire week as I am planning to take a few days in Oslo on our way back…to see friends. 

Call me selfish or what ever, but I want some relaxing time for me and the girls. I want them to “myself” without meddling and having to consider my mum’s point of view. It is not that she is meddling with how I bring the girls up, but she is not contributing in conversation nor with the work load. So she tend to just piss me off. Age has had a very negative impact on her life somehow, and I don’t relax around her. She stresses me out…I don’t know why but shed total lack of interest in anything life has to offer is just something I find hard to deal with. Before I had the kids and she came to see me, she always helped me with chores. She could show up at my door with a big pot of food that she made just to make me happy. After I had the girls, she doesn’t even help out on bit. As they were born, she came to Oslo and spent three weeks to help me out….without helping. She didn’t take on any obligations at all, and to be honest I felt like a mother of three. I cooked, cleaned and made sure she was content. She didn’t even offer to go to the shop on her own (it was just to take the elevator down 12 floors). She wanted me to tag along. It was February, so for me to do so, I had to dress both girls and stuff them in the “moby wrap” and do the trip with them. So it was no help at all. 

Before the kids, when she came to Oslo to see me, she would do things around the house while I were at work. She would hover or wash, sort the refrigerator out and do other chores. But when she comes to see us now, she sits at the sofa offering no help at all. She doesn’t even help with the dishes after dinner. I have to ask her to watch the girls when they have their bath or help them brush their teeth. It is like she needs to be told everything. I don’t really trust her to take care of the girls either…even if she is looking after them for 2,5 hours ever Thursday. This summer she looked after Leah while I went to sign the contract on the house we just bought. Lilly joined me. So it should be pretty easy on her. I asked her to keep her phone close as the deal was for her to make Leah ready for departure when we left the estate agents office. She didn’t pick up the phone when I called her. So when I got to my mum’s house I found her outside in the garden doing some gardening, but Leah was not outside with her. She was inside at the toilet screaming for grandma to come and wipe her (but my mum heard nothing). Probably not a big deal, but to me that is not looking after. At another occasion she was looking after the girls because I had a meeting early in the morning. She came to my house the night before for dinner and a sleepover…just to make things easier on her in the morning. Just before I had to depart in the morning, I made the three of them a smoothie and instructed my mum to feed them breakfast as we were to head down town to vote as we had our election that day. I came home at 12:00. The kids were quite content, but when I asked my mum if she had fed them, her response made me sick to my stomach. She said: “I had a cup of coffee!” I don’t really care IF she had coffee or not. She is a grown up and should be fully capable to take care of herself, but it pisses me off when my kids are not fed from 08:00 - 12:00. 

So if I bring her on our little “get away”…it will not really feel like a get away for me. It will feel like adding unnecessary stress to my time off work, and I would probably need a holiday after returning from my holiday. Do I make sense or do you think not offering to take her in the car with us, is me being small minded and cold hearted? I feel selfish, but it is not like she has not seen her sister in ages. She just spent a 10 in Spain with them. She returned two weeks ago, and she was in Spain with them again in June.

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As it is getting darker and darker each and every day….

…it is getting harder and harder to get myself out of bed in the morning. I am really struggling big time. Regardless of when I am crawling into bed at night, I am just “never rested” upon waking up. 

Yesterday I even fell asleep on the sofa after we got to my dad’s to do one load of laundry. It was around three o’clock, and I slept for half an hour while the girls did some drawing and jigsaw puzzles.

I just wish I could take ONE day off so that I could sleep. 

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The girls friend from next door…or at least one of them. This gentleman’s name is Paco, and he is “The Friendly Giant”!

The girls friend from next door…or at least one of them. This gentleman’s name is Paco, and he is “The Friendly Giant”!

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Got to pick tomatoes from@our next door neighbors.

Got to pick tomatoes from@our next door neighbors.

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The girls came home with a small guitar after visiting school today. So they have entertained me with a concert at our front steps this afternoon. Time to get dinner started!

The girls came home with a small guitar after visiting school today. So they have entertained me with a concert at our front steps this afternoon. Time to get dinner started!

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Can’t help but love YouTube toto rials. Even mummy is hooked on the loom bands. Made one for each of the girls. So they have half their arm covered as they trot off for a few hours at daycare tomorrow before joining me at the “St Michael’s” celebration at school.

Can’t help but love YouTube toto rials. Even mummy is hooked on the loom bands. Made one for each of the girls. So they have half their arm covered as they trot off for a few hours at daycare tomorrow before joining me at the “St Michael’s” celebration at school.

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Seeing the girls splashing away in my dads bathtub, brings tears to my eyes!

Seeing the girls splashing away in my dads bathtub, brings tears to my eyes!

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Their drawing skills are improving. Lilly is in progress of making a little pretty butterfly. I guess I am not the only one that wants summer to return!

Their drawing skills are improving. Lilly is in progress of making a little pretty butterfly. I guess I am not the only one that wants summer to return!